Not many people know that one month after Robert and I were married we had to make a big decision. Have Robert go to court and be sued for thousands of dollars, or have him file for Bankruptcy. Yes this is a shock and as a very new wife, it was a huge shock to me. I had no idea that my new husband had so much debt, a debt that he was very much ashamed of . After reviewing very lengthy court documents I came to realize that Robert had debt from when, what in my mind just a kid, At nineteen he had no idea what credit cards, a car loan, unpaid student loans could mount up fast and stay. They don't go away. So my very upset husband at this time at the age of 25 was lost. He had a new wife and questions were going through his mind. Would his wife stay? Would she look at him in a different way? How could we start a family ?
I remember one night sitting on the couch with Robert , I grabbed his hand and said, " You are mine forever and always. Through thick and thin, we cling to each other and I'll never let go."
Each and every month for the past five years Robert and I have paid a Bankruptcy payment. Each and every month we could have been paying for a very expensive car, a new camping trailer, or really just saving that money!! Every time I had to send off that check I wanted to cry. I felt as if I was pulling $500 plus out of the account and just burning it, or letting it fly away in the wind. We have had very tough months. Months were the only way I could buy formula for my baby was to ask my mother, with tears in my eyes for $20.
Now with me not having a job and Robert working as mush as he can, we are feeling that burden of paying a Bankruptcy becoming heavier. The sacrifices my parents made for us and our future never really made an impact on me, until I myself was faced with making those same sacrifices. I remember the stories my parents would tell us, how they were so poor when were little ( my siblings an I) that my parents never went anywhere. They didn't have the gas money let alone money for entertainment purposes.
Ok I could sit here and make this out to be a sob story, but its really not. I'm so very happy to say that this Bankruptcy will be over in Two Months!!! Some questions could be going through your head right now and let me clean them up. NO not once was I ever mad at Robert for keeping his debt from me. I married the 25 year old man ( now 32) who I knew, I didn't marry his past. No this never impacted our marriage in a bad way. We grew closer and learned to never keep secrets from each other. Sometimes we are a little too open haha. Yes it was worth it to file a Chapter 13 Bankruptcy and pay off all the debt, instead of making a cut and run deal.
I just had a conversation with my very best friend Beth, we both decided that love is so much more than money. Money will come and go, and might make your life easier. But Marriage is for life, the love and support that you give to your spouse should be the most important part of your day.
Monday, May 20, 2013
Thursday, March 21, 2013
I really should post more.
OK, OK I understand that it has been more than a year that I have posted, but really I never have time for this. So I was told today by the Most Amazing person I know that I never update my blog. So here I go.....
Skyler is almost FOUR!! Aaahhh!! I'm going to have a four year old this is just do crazy to me. Each and every day Robert and I are so amazed with the things he is learning. I'm sure it could just be "parent pride" but man this kid impresses me. Robert was asking Skyler what all the parts on a car are for, and Skyler's answers blew me away. I don't think I knew what a seat belt was for at his age, Skyler's response was " To keep us safe and alive" wait... did we wear seat belts back then??
Harrison is my little quiet Monster at almost 18 months old and only 24 lbs. This little one can be your best movie vegging buddy. The Cuddle monster of your dreams, but when this kid is no where ti be found that's when you start to think, " what in the world is he getting into now?" and usually he is standing on the table or climbing the shelves of the pantry.
In February 2013 I had to make the hardest decision ever!! Continue to work at IMC, or stay home with my babies. After lots of tears Robert and I decided to end my Seven year stress and stay at home with the boys. I know what you are thinking, you are thinking " umm I'd love to stay at home are you crazy??" I have said this before and will say it again, Some days are so stressful at home, I would love to get a job! I love my boys but, most days we are inside the house all day! With Spring here and Summer approaching this should change. I just had a 20 minute phone conversation with my most amazing friend Beth, and honestly she could hear the desperation of Adult interaction in my voice. Love you Beth!
Skyler is almost FOUR!! Aaahhh!! I'm going to have a four year old this is just do crazy to me. Each and every day Robert and I are so amazed with the things he is learning. I'm sure it could just be "parent pride" but man this kid impresses me. Robert was asking Skyler what all the parts on a car are for, and Skyler's answers blew me away. I don't think I knew what a seat belt was for at his age, Skyler's response was " To keep us safe and alive" wait... did we wear seat belts back then??
Harrison is my little quiet Monster at almost 18 months old and only 24 lbs. This little one can be your best movie vegging buddy. The Cuddle monster of your dreams, but when this kid is no where ti be found that's when you start to think, " what in the world is he getting into now?" and usually he is standing on the table or climbing the shelves of the pantry.
In February 2013 I had to make the hardest decision ever!! Continue to work at IMC, or stay home with my babies. After lots of tears Robert and I decided to end my Seven year stress and stay at home with the boys. I know what you are thinking, you are thinking " umm I'd love to stay at home are you crazy??" I have said this before and will say it again, Some days are so stressful at home, I would love to get a job! I love my boys but, most days we are inside the house all day! With Spring here and Summer approaching this should change. I just had a 20 minute phone conversation with my most amazing friend Beth, and honestly she could hear the desperation of Adult interaction in my voice. Love you Beth!
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
A Little late, but a great moment in my Life
First of all I should start off by acknowledging that I haven't posted a blog in over a year. But this is only because I really dislike blog spot it never ever ever works for me and I only have two followers.... who I'm not sure they even read my posts...........
So much has happened in the past year. My last blog was about a new addition to our family. Harrison Robert was born on October 18, 2011 at 7:15 P.M. at 7 lbs 11ozs and at only 20" long he had me wrapped around his finger from the moment the Nurse placed him on my chest.
Earlier that day I had gone in for a Dr's appointment only to be surprised by my water breaking during a normal checkup! I was already in the hospital, my Dr. was in town, the on;y scary part was I was totally alone! And I had both keys to our cars!! Robert had to get a ride from his brother just to come to the hospital. LOL looking at it ow it was funny, but at the time....not so much. Fortunately all I had to do was walk down the hall to L&D. A half hour later Robert, Skyler, my mom and dad all showed up. They stayed long enough for me to get hugs and kisses from Skyler than he was off to spend a few days with Grandma and Papa. It was so nice and relaxing that Robert and I decided to be selfish and just have this moment to us. It was so nice to not have to worry about family coming in and out of our room while I was in labor. Robert stayed next to me the while time holding my hand and encouraging me to get some sleep after i had an epidural. Labor was soooo fast this time (Skyler was 24 hours) I started pushing at 7:15( I only pushed twice) and fifteen minutes later Harrison Robert was born. I will never forget the moment he was put on my chest. With Skyler I didn't have the option of Skin to Skin, so Robert held him first. With Harrison he was all mine. I hogged him and didn't want to let him go.
So much has happened in the past year. My last blog was about a new addition to our family. Harrison Robert was born on October 18, 2011 at 7:15 P.M. at 7 lbs 11ozs and at only 20" long he had me wrapped around his finger from the moment the Nurse placed him on my chest.
Earlier that day I had gone in for a Dr's appointment only to be surprised by my water breaking during a normal checkup! I was already in the hospital, my Dr. was in town, the on;y scary part was I was totally alone! And I had both keys to our cars!! Robert had to get a ride from his brother just to come to the hospital. LOL looking at it ow it was funny, but at the time....not so much. Fortunately all I had to do was walk down the hall to L&D. A half hour later Robert, Skyler, my mom and dad all showed up. They stayed long enough for me to get hugs and kisses from Skyler than he was off to spend a few days with Grandma and Papa. It was so nice and relaxing that Robert and I decided to be selfish and just have this moment to us. It was so nice to not have to worry about family coming in and out of our room while I was in labor. Robert stayed next to me the while time holding my hand and encouraging me to get some sleep after i had an epidural. Labor was soooo fast this time (Skyler was 24 hours) I started pushing at 7:15( I only pushed twice) and fifteen minutes later Harrison Robert was born. I will never forget the moment he was put on my chest. With Skyler I didn't have the option of Skin to Skin, so Robert held him first. With Harrison he was all mine. I hogged him and didn't want to let him go.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Family is growing!
I decided that it has been way too long sence my last blog. So much has happened in our little family. For starters our family is getting bigger!! Yep its official that we are due to be blessed with another Boy on October 27th!! So I guess we will be trick-or-treating in the hospital this year. I do have to say that I am really nervous about this new addition. I love beeing a mom and a wife, but wow two boys, and one is having the worst terrable two's ever! I'm going to have my hands full.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Being at peace
The people who are truly close to me, know just how much I have been struggling with my personal beliefs. It was so very very hard for me to finally leave the LDS church, but it was something that I had to do. A few months ago I reached out to a friend and told her how I felt that something was missing in my life. I wanted god on my side, but didn't know what to do, because the only thing I have ever known was to be Mormon. This fantastic friend invited us to go to K2 the church with her and her husband. It was so different, but I loved it. Every single person looked like they actually wanted to be there!! They didn't look like they were half awake or fell asleep during the sermon. They actually truly wanted god in there life. I have to admit I was at first not comfortable when they started to sing and praising god in there own way. But when you look around and you see happiness on every single persons face...... it just felt right. That week I was struggling with this new found happiness or the religion that I grew up in, the only thing I have ever known. I remember driving to work one morning listening to the radio, and the DJ on at the time said " If you are out there struggling with anything in your life with now, just know that god is here and he loves you." I instantly started to cry. Why was I so upset with this?! Why couldn't I just be at peace with God?! That's when I got out of my car and I looked toward a group of trees that was near the parking lot. To my amazement there was a cross standing bold and tall. It was almost like a light bulb was flicked on inside my head! I finally got it!! I finally knew that I was here to be a wife and a mother, but I'm also here as a child of god. I'm not supposed to worry about what religion is right for me. I'm just supposed to understand that I'm here and god loves me... and to just surrender my self to him, and to trust him in my life.
When I was leaving work that day I started looking for that cross that i saw that morning, and to my surprise it wasnt there, but what was there was................. a telephone pole!! Hahaha I felt a little silly but it was ok. Thats what I needed that morning God wanted me to see a sign that he is here for me.
When I was leaving work that day I started looking for that cross that i saw that morning, and to my surprise it wasnt there, but what was there was................. a telephone pole!! Hahaha I felt a little silly but it was ok. Thats what I needed that morning God wanted me to see a sign that he is here for me.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Our LIfe
First I want to thank everyone who actually reads and follows our blog. Its nice to know that you have people in your life that care so much about you . I figured that I should start our blog by sharing the history of Robert and I.
I met Robert through a co-worker in 2006 when I first started at Cottonwood Hospital. I had ended a really bad relationship that previous year and was not so convinced I was ready to jump into another relationship. But I found out that Robert wasn't so excited about starting a new relationship with a total stranger either. We finally met and I felt that it was total love at first sight. I remember telling my friend at work the next day that I was going to marry that man. Seven months later I got an engagement ring in my fortune cookie, and six months later we were married on September 1 2007. Some say it was a fast engagement, but it was meant to be.
In January 2008 We found out that I was pregnant. It wasn't anything we planned but it was fine with us. That's when I learned that life comes at you so fast, but can also be taken away in an instant and in March I miscarried. This was the hardest thing that I have ever been through in my life, but at the same time my brother and his wife announced they were expecting their second child. I was happy for them but I was also very angry person to the world. I can't describe exactly what I felt and this may sound harsh, but I had total hatred for anyone who was pregnant. Total complete strangers would make me think " what makes you a better mother than me?" Robert was my rock during this time, and he still is.
Five months later in August I was pregnant again. Every little ache or cramp I had would bring back the painful memories from five moths ago. The frightening feeling of miscarriage never leaves you. It something that is always in the back of your mind. And everyday I tried to suppress the awful those awful memories, and when I started to feel happy about our new baby to come I felt guilty.
Skyler was born on April 24 2009, his daddy's 28th birthday!! I will never forget the feeling of my life being complete when I held him for the first time. I knew then it was total love at first site.
I met Robert through a co-worker in 2006 when I first started at Cottonwood Hospital. I had ended a really bad relationship that previous year and was not so convinced I was ready to jump into another relationship. But I found out that Robert wasn't so excited about starting a new relationship with a total stranger either. We finally met and I felt that it was total love at first sight. I remember telling my friend at work the next day that I was going to marry that man. Seven months later I got an engagement ring in my fortune cookie, and six months later we were married on September 1 2007. Some say it was a fast engagement, but it was meant to be.
In January 2008 We found out that I was pregnant. It wasn't anything we planned but it was fine with us. That's when I learned that life comes at you so fast, but can also be taken away in an instant and in March I miscarried. This was the hardest thing that I have ever been through in my life, but at the same time my brother and his wife announced they were expecting their second child. I was happy for them but I was also very angry person to the world. I can't describe exactly what I felt and this may sound harsh, but I had total hatred for anyone who was pregnant. Total complete strangers would make me think " what makes you a better mother than me?" Robert was my rock during this time, and he still is.
Five months later in August I was pregnant again. Every little ache or cramp I had would bring back the painful memories from five moths ago. The frightening feeling of miscarriage never leaves you. It something that is always in the back of your mind. And everyday I tried to suppress the awful those awful memories, and when I started to feel happy about our new baby to come I felt guilty.
Skyler was born on April 24 2009, his daddy's 28th birthday!! I will never forget the feeling of my life being complete when I held him for the first time. I knew then it was total love at first site.
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