I met Robert through a co-worker in 2006 when I first started at Cottonwood Hospital. I had ended a really bad relationship that previous year and was not so convinced I was ready to jump into another relationship. But I found out that Robert wasn't so excited about starting a new relationship with a total stranger either. We finally met and I felt that it was total love at first sight. I remember telling my friend at work the next day that I was going to marry that man. Seven months later I got an engagement ring in my fortune cookie, and six months later we were married on September 1 2007. Some say it was a fast engagement, but it was meant to be.
In January 2008 We found out that I was pregnant. It wasn't anything we planned but it was fine with us. That's when I learned that life comes at you so fast, but can also be taken away in an instant and in March I miscarried. This was the hardest thing that I have ever been through in my life, but at the same time my brother and his wife announced they were expecting their second child. I was happy for them but I was also very angry person to the world. I can't describe exactly what I felt and this may sound harsh, but I had total hatred for anyone who was pregnant. Total complete strangers would make me think " what makes you a better mother than me?" Robert was my rock during this time, and he still is.
Five months later in August I was pregnant again. Every little ache or cramp I had would bring back the painful memories from five moths ago. The frightening feeling of miscarriage never leaves you. It something that is always in the back of your mind. And everyday I tried to suppress the awful those awful memories, and when I started to feel happy about our new baby to come I felt guilty.
Skyler was born on April 24 2009, his daddy's 28th birthday!! I will never forget the feeling of my life being complete when I held him for the first time. I knew then it was total love at first site.
No comments:
Post a Comment