I decided that it has been way too long sence my last blog. So much has happened in our little family. For starters our family is getting bigger!! Yep its official that we are due to be blessed with another Boy on October 27th!! So I guess we will be trick-or-treating in the hospital this year. I do have to say that I am really nervous about this new addition. I love beeing a mom and a wife, but wow two boys, and one is having the worst terrable two's ever! I'm going to have my hands full.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Being at peace
The people who are truly close to me, know just how much I have been struggling with my personal beliefs. It was so very very hard for me to finally leave the LDS church, but it was something that I had to do. A few months ago I reached out to a friend and told her how I felt that something was missing in my life. I wanted god on my side, but didn't know what to do, because the only thing I have ever known was to be Mormon. This fantastic friend invited us to go to K2 the church with her and her husband. It was so different, but I loved it. Every single person looked like they actually wanted to be there!! They didn't look like they were half awake or fell asleep during the sermon. They actually truly wanted god in there life. I have to admit I was at first not comfortable when they started to sing and praising god in there own way. But when you look around and you see happiness on every single persons face...... it just felt right. That week I was struggling with this new found happiness or the religion that I grew up in, the only thing I have ever known. I remember driving to work one morning listening to the radio, and the DJ on at the time said " If you are out there struggling with anything in your life with now, just know that god is here and he loves you." I instantly started to cry. Why was I so upset with this?! Why couldn't I just be at peace with God?! That's when I got out of my car and I looked toward a group of trees that was near the parking lot. To my amazement there was a cross standing bold and tall. It was almost like a light bulb was flicked on inside my head! I finally got it!! I finally knew that I was here to be a wife and a mother, but I'm also here as a child of god. I'm not supposed to worry about what religion is right for me. I'm just supposed to understand that I'm here and god loves me... and to just surrender my self to him, and to trust him in my life.
When I was leaving work that day I started looking for that cross that i saw that morning, and to my surprise it wasnt there, but what was there was................. a telephone pole!! Hahaha I felt a little silly but it was ok. Thats what I needed that morning God wanted me to see a sign that he is here for me.
When I was leaving work that day I started looking for that cross that i saw that morning, and to my surprise it wasnt there, but what was there was................. a telephone pole!! Hahaha I felt a little silly but it was ok. Thats what I needed that morning God wanted me to see a sign that he is here for me.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Our LIfe
First I want to thank everyone who actually reads and follows our blog. Its nice to know that you have people in your life that care so much about you . I figured that I should start our blog by sharing the history of Robert and I.
I met Robert through a co-worker in 2006 when I first started at Cottonwood Hospital. I had ended a really bad relationship that previous year and was not so convinced I was ready to jump into another relationship. But I found out that Robert wasn't so excited about starting a new relationship with a total stranger either. We finally met and I felt that it was total love at first sight. I remember telling my friend at work the next day that I was going to marry that man. Seven months later I got an engagement ring in my fortune cookie, and six months later we were married on September 1 2007. Some say it was a fast engagement, but it was meant to be.
In January 2008 We found out that I was pregnant. It wasn't anything we planned but it was fine with us. That's when I learned that life comes at you so fast, but can also be taken away in an instant and in March I miscarried. This was the hardest thing that I have ever been through in my life, but at the same time my brother and his wife announced they were expecting their second child. I was happy for them but I was also very angry person to the world. I can't describe exactly what I felt and this may sound harsh, but I had total hatred for anyone who was pregnant. Total complete strangers would make me think " what makes you a better mother than me?" Robert was my rock during this time, and he still is.
Five months later in August I was pregnant again. Every little ache or cramp I had would bring back the painful memories from five moths ago. The frightening feeling of miscarriage never leaves you. It something that is always in the back of your mind. And everyday I tried to suppress the awful those awful memories, and when I started to feel happy about our new baby to come I felt guilty.
Skyler was born on April 24 2009, his daddy's 28th birthday!! I will never forget the feeling of my life being complete when I held him for the first time. I knew then it was total love at first site.
I met Robert through a co-worker in 2006 when I first started at Cottonwood Hospital. I had ended a really bad relationship that previous year and was not so convinced I was ready to jump into another relationship. But I found out that Robert wasn't so excited about starting a new relationship with a total stranger either. We finally met and I felt that it was total love at first sight. I remember telling my friend at work the next day that I was going to marry that man. Seven months later I got an engagement ring in my fortune cookie, and six months later we were married on September 1 2007. Some say it was a fast engagement, but it was meant to be.
In January 2008 We found out that I was pregnant. It wasn't anything we planned but it was fine with us. That's when I learned that life comes at you so fast, but can also be taken away in an instant and in March I miscarried. This was the hardest thing that I have ever been through in my life, but at the same time my brother and his wife announced they were expecting their second child. I was happy for them but I was also very angry person to the world. I can't describe exactly what I felt and this may sound harsh, but I had total hatred for anyone who was pregnant. Total complete strangers would make me think " what makes you a better mother than me?" Robert was my rock during this time, and he still is.
Five months later in August I was pregnant again. Every little ache or cramp I had would bring back the painful memories from five moths ago. The frightening feeling of miscarriage never leaves you. It something that is always in the back of your mind. And everyday I tried to suppress the awful those awful memories, and when I started to feel happy about our new baby to come I felt guilty.
Skyler was born on April 24 2009, his daddy's 28th birthday!! I will never forget the feeling of my life being complete when I held him for the first time. I knew then it was total love at first site.
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